My life seems to be in a tail spin again
Question:
Well I'm not sure about whats going on in my life again. About 1 month ago I had nothing to live for.For ten years i was lost because the women of my dreams walk out of my life, and it was my fault, not that did any one thing to her, because i did not treat her like I should have. We were both very young so that's what really went wrong, One month ago I was able to spend some time with her, and it was incredible to be able to look at her with my eyes.I spent 10 years by myself hiding
for a drug problem not wanting to live with what i did to myself by drowning myself in drugs and losing her. I have been clean for many years now, and I thank god for that. I have really only felt the love of god in my heart since I met back up with her, She ask me to go to church with her, and I did and found god that night.The most incredible thing in my life.There was light at the and of my tunnel for the 1 time in 10 years. We are now again 1200 miles apart, and my light at the end of my tunnel is fading fast once again, I'm sad to say. please if you can shed a little light on this for me, I would appreciate It Thank you, and god bless, Michael
Asked 341 days ago
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- Answer from Lisa4Jesus
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God's love never fades. However, we do not always "feel" it in an emotional way. Even though we may not always feel it in an emotional sense, we can always "know" that His love is with us because God never changes and He never takes His love away from us. Love, in reality, is not actually a "feeling" so much as it is a "commitment", a promise to stand by a person no matter how we may "feel" at any given time. Paul described love in the most perfect terms in 1st Corinthians 13:48: Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, endures all things. Love never ends.
This is how God's love for us is. The reason you feel like the light you saw at the end of the tunnel is fading away is because your love was wrapped up in her and she is now far away. If you truly want to feel and "know" God's love, you must get to know Him. You do this through the life of Jesus by reading your Bible every day and spending daily time with Him in prayer. Just talk to Him as you would your best friend. God will answer you in so many different ways, especially through Scripture. He wants you to know and love Him as well as He knows and loves you. Loving relationships take time to develope. As you get to know a person better and better over time, the more and more you come to love them. It is the same with God. The better you get to know Him, the more love you will feel for and from Him. I used to make the same mistake you are making now. I would seek that love that I needed from the realtionships I was in. The problem in doing this is that another person will never be able to fill that spot in you that only God can fill. Another person will always let you down. God never will.
While you were with her, it seemed to you as if it was filled because of the love you felt for her. But now you are starting to feel the need for that very same love that only God can fill. It was simply masked for a time while you were with her. My advise to you is to "focus on God" and ask Him to help you get to know Him better. Start reading your Bible every day and really study the life of Jesus. The better you come to know Jesus, the better you will come to know God. Once you have developed a solid, daily realtionship with Him, you will no longer have this need and will also find yourself a much happier person for it. I didn't realize myself until after I was saved for quite some time. I developed a love for Scripture and studying the Bible. The more I studied, the more I learned, the better I got to know Him, the more I found myself filled with God's love. It was after doing this for a while that I found myself looking back and realizing that I was continually seeking this love from another human being. And what I found out was that "NO ONE" can fill this spot in you EXCEPT for God! When you have God's love like this, through a very personal relationship with Him, then to love another person is simply an added bonus - a gift. I pray this helps you and you will continue to be in my prayers. I know what your feeling right now and how much it hurts. But I can promise you, that if you do what I've advised here, you will find yourself filled and overflowing with God's love, peace, joy and contentment before you even know it. We have an awesome God and He promises us that once He starts a work in us, He will not stop continuing to help us grow until His work in us is complete. I pray that God Bless You Abundantly, Make His Face To Shine Upon You & Give You Peace my friend. Know that you are not alone and that you will get through this. You are God's kid now and He NEVER fails His children!
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Answered 341 days
ago by
Lisa4Jesus